July is Almost Here!

Well, July is almost here! YAY!!! That means I will have only four or five more weeks of working at my "favorite" job. I am tempted to tell my boss that the 27th of July will be my last day. I have an offer to help with summer school the last part of July and early part of August. I will get paid more than I am getting paid at the other job. Also, I know I can handle working with this student because it will be familiar to me. Please, just let me make it through the next four weeks for sure.

My Ouchie Experience

Today I had a major ouchie experience. I was at work peeling some potatoes for the afternoon shift. I was cruising along and was almost done. Then, it happened. The potato peeler sliced one of my fingers and took part of the fingernail with it. It is just a little sliver, but it hurt like heck. I went to the bathroom hoping I could find a band-aid. Needless to say, I didn't find one. So I wrapped my finger in some toilet paper. After some searching, I did find some waterproof band-aids. I put one on, and now I am fine. It was a shocking experience, but I am so glad it wasn't as bad as it could be. I will be more cautious the next time I am peeling potatoes.

Got to Have Faith

I have learned sometimes you have to have faith. I need to learn how to have faith in myself. I don't give myself enough credit. I am not a troll that needs to hide in the house. It is good to get out and socialize with others. Tonight I went to a ball game for my goddaughter's cousin. They won 9 to 0. Plus, I have an unexpected surprise. There was a guy there that I have liked for almost a year. I have never really got the courage to say hi. There have been a lot of unspokens. For the most part, I had totally given up. So I didn't pay much attention to him. There was a few times I looked over and it looked like he was looking towards where I was at. I didn't pay much attention to it because I figured I was imagining things. Katie, my goddaughter, said halfway through the game, "Lisa, Mr. T is looking over at you all the time!" I told her, I thought I noticed that too but I figured I was imagining it. She said, "No, he is looking over at you!" We left and went to the post office. On the way back, I was about to turn the corner going to Katie's house. We met up with Mr. T driving his car. I figured what the hell, I am going to wave. My friend, Leyla, and I waved and he waved back. Jake says, "Lisa, he waved back at you!" Needless to say, it doesn't sound like much! But it really did renew my faith that I do have something to offer the world. If something happens, great! If it doesn't, I will live. I do know I will give myself the benefit of the doubt and not hide from him anymore.

To Exercise or To Not Exercise

Since I have been working, I have neglected my duty to exercise. Frankly, I have neglected it because I have no energy left. This evening I decided to get in gear. The swimming pool is offering Aqua Exercises every Wednesday. Well, I decided to go. When I arrive, there is no other people there for the water exercise. Finally, three other people showed up. I am no young chicken, but I sure felt like it when I saw the other people there. It went pretty good, and I think it took some relief off my aching feet. So I think I will do it again, next Week!!!

My Interesting Conversation

Yesterday I experienced an interesting conversation. Let's go over a little bit of the background of the person I was talking to. About three weeks ago, I got a message from a guy on Yahoo personals. At first, he seemed like a good guy that I might hit it off with. We talked once on the phone one night. Everything went good. He called the next day. That wasn't the problem! He called three times in one day, and e-mailed three times in the same day. I started to think this might be a big issue. I gave him the benefit of the doubt. I think he got mad at me when I said we needed to get to know each other without any kind of sexual talk. We haven't talked since then, and then yesterday he messaged me. He said, "You haven't talked much." So then I explained to him that I started my job, and it was kicking my behind. Then he said, Is that a pic of Carl Edwards, I can't tell with sunglasses." I said yes. My display pic is a pic of Carl Edwards because he won the race Sunday. He is my second favorite race car driver. Then he had the audacity to say, "You just jump on the bandwagon or what?" My response was I have always liked Carl Edwards. That was the end of the conversation. Let me just say, this really pissed me off. First of all, if he would have took the time to get to know me, he would have known Carl Edwards is one of my favorite drivers. I just don't get how he thinks he has the right to judge me when he didn't take the time to really get to know me. Grrrrr!!!

Seven More Weeks....

Yes, it is true! I have seven more weeks until my summer job is over. I am counting down the days. I will be so happy to see my students. It is not that I don't appreciate the opportunity to work; it is the fact that this job is just not my cup of tea. It has truly made me realize that I need to get my general studies degree. Then I can focus on what I want to major in. When I accomplish that, then I won't have to get a summer job to make it through the year. I am just trying to focus on each day and get it over with. Come on August 3rd!!!

Here I Am!

I am back! This week has been hectic so far. I started my new job Wednesday morning, and by the time I got home I wanted to cry. The restaurant is packed during lunch and we cook constantly from 11:00 to close to 12:30. Today wasn't as bad, but I think I adjusted to some of the turmoil. I work tomorrow and Saturday and then I have two days off. Thank God!!! The problem is the boss will be gone tomorrow and Saturday, so it will just be the two of us to deal with the lunch rush. I just hope we make it through the two days without having a major incident. I think I have no feet left because they are totally numb. My back and neck aches. I am sick of getting up at 5:45 in the morning. Ok, I am done griping. It is money and I only have seven more weeks until school starts again. Now, I am going to watch game four of the NBA Finals.

No Food Diary Today!

Well, I decided I might as well not do a food diary today because I have been a bad girl. I went to church and ate a buffet style dinner. Then I went to my goddaughter's house for her birthday party and ate some cake and ice cream. Plus, I am really nervous about this potential job. I am bordering on screaming or bawling on cue. Everything in my body just wants to scream. It is definitely triggering my emotional food dependences. Trust me, right now I want a big jug of Coke, nachos, cheeseburger with curly fries, and something really sweet to top it off with. I am sure I will survive; it is just not a good day!

My Food Diary for June 9, 2007

yogurt
grilled cheese with two pickles
four oatmeal cookies
two cups of grapes
2 slices of pepperoni pizza
one cup of raisins
a can of Coke

I am definitely craving something right now, but I guess I will drink some water and then try to keep myself busy.

Wish me Luck!

Well, today I got a phone call from a restaurant from a nearby town. It might just be what I need for the summer. During the school year, I work as an interrelated paraprofessional. In other words, I work with kids with learning disabilities. Then, summer comes around and I have no income coming in until September. Granted, I start working again the first week of August, but that still leaves another month until I get paid. I have been helping out my mom around the farm by mowing and painting. If I get this job, it will help pay some other bills like insurance, credit card payment, electricity, and phone. If I get this job, I will be a cook working from 6:30 in the morning to 2:30 in the afternoon. Please wish me luck!

My Food Diary for June 8, 2007

2 oatmeal cookies
two slices of meatloaf
handful of Cheetos
cup of grapes
cup of carrots
cup of Cinnamon Life
cup of jello
two cups of macaroni and cheese
one cup of stuffing

Activities for the day:
Moved four cement blocks
mowed for a hour and half
chopped some weeds

My Food Diary for June 7, 2007

Oatmeal Cookie
Banana
handful of Cheetos
bologna sandwich
grapes
handful of Cinnamon Life
slice of meatloaf
baked potato with a pat of butter and salt and pepper
cup of jello
yogurt
orange Powerade

Activities for the Day:
Moved 13 cement blocks

An Anniversary

Well, today is the fifth anniversary of the day that my dad passed away. It has been five years to this day since my dad went to heaven. I am writing this post in remembrance of him. He was very special to me, and I definitely had my daddy's little girl moments. He read to me when I was little. I can remember just waiting for him to read my favorite book to me every night. It was a green old book about stories about wildlife. Also, he read the Yearling to me once in awhile. Also, I can remember going for walks with my mom and dad. They use to swing me around while we were walking. When I got older, I can remember going to Pointed Rocks and looking for arrowheads. Sometimes we went rafting down the Arkansas River. Then, when I was an adult, we worked together at Pierceville Coop during harvest time. We spent many great times together, and I still talk to him to this day. Dear Dad, I love you and I think of you each and every day.

Life Lessons

I have learned a valuable life lesson today. Sometimes it pays to just keep your mouth shut about certain things. My mom has a live in boyfriend that I have disapproved of since day one. She left my dad and moved right in with this guy, let's call him "George". He is one that thinks his opinion is the only one that matters. When I voiced my opinions to my mom in the past, she just thought I was being a vindicative spoiled brat. Now I have learned to keep my mouth shut and let her realize the true him. Trust me, she is learning fast that he is nothing but trouble. I just hope she will soon kick him out and he will be on the road to a different place. I am sure that day is coming up soon.

A Spur of Creativity

As I was sitting in my house debating about doing some of the things that I have always put off for another day, I had a creativity insight. I realized this summer would be a great time to start writing a biography about my grandpa. Ever since he passed away in 1999, I knew I wanted to write a short book about him to pay tribute to him. It will talk about him in many ways and some of the life lessons he has installed in me and some of my family. To me, he was a true Renaissance man. He could do anything that he put his mind to. He didn't have much education and everything he learned; he learned through trial and error. A lot of people could instill this dedication and determination into their life.

Dealing with my mom

One part of dating is having to deal with my mother. I know that sounds funny, but it is soooo true. If you mention that you are talking to a guy, you get the 20 questions. What is his name? What does he do? Does he have kids? Then after a week, she is automatically asking, "So when are you going out with him?" Are you avoiding him?" I know she wants what is best for me, but sometimes I wish she would let me decide what or who that is. Give me the strength to be able to answer these questions and deal with her on a daily basis as long as I am in the dating world.

The Challenges of Dating

Well, I finally decided I needed to get back into the dating world. I was only in hiding for a brief three years. I know that is not a brief vacation from dating, but a long time to hide in my house. That is exactly what I did, hide in the house. Where did it get me? Well, I think the answer is absolutely nowhere. It is hard to meet people when you don't put yourself out in the open. Well, I finally decided I have to get out and mingle with the real world. So, here it goes. I put an ad on a personals website. At first, I didn't get many hits at all. Then I started to get a few hits once in awhile. My experience has been either I find guys that would make good friends and nothing else or I have found the guys that want that ever so wonderful friends with benefits. The first questions some of them ask is, "What is your bra size?" Well, that is on a need to know basis. You get to know me and we make a connection then you will get to meet Betty and Sue, until then don't ask. Well, now I have a few guys that I think might be worthwhile in getting to know. I just need to give them a chance and realize negative thoughts will get me nowhere in life. Wish me luck!

P.S. I am not man bashing. I am just sharing my experiences.

Addiction or Desires?

Life is full of desires. Have you ever wondered when it goes past a desire and turns into an addiction? I have a couple of things that almost border into addiction. One of them is food. Food can be my best friend or my worst enemy. I am battling the addiction to food every day. I am now just starting to win the battle. I will not let food or my emotional dependence on it take over my life. Also, I am fighting another addiction that I chose to keep hidden at this time. It is not gambling, drugs, or anything illegal. It is something that must people would be amazed by. It comes and goes. Some days it is stronger than others. Yesterday I really struggled with it. Today I am back to myself and reality as it should be. The problem is I involve other people in my desires or addictions. Then I struggle to be myself again, and then have to face the fact that the people that I am surrounding myself with, are not the best people to be around or talk to. I am hoping with this blog I can conquer my problems and discuss them so I understand why I continue to go back to the same desires.